maybe it's because i'm human

or a girl

or maybe it's because i haven't slept in weeks

but all I want to do is curl up and cry

not because i'm sad- how could I be?

look around. its almost spring. everything is changing

growing

it's so beautiful

(i always forget what it smells like,

what the sun feels like beating against my skin)

i want to cry because people move too fast to see all of this

i move to fast

too focused on whats for dinner.

i want to sit still. i want to cry. i want to giggle. 

i want to watch tomatoes grow

on top of a hill

with you. or without you.

but come visit?

.... emotional wreck today....

as soon as i wrote: without you.

mind wandered into a haunted place

what a baby i can become when its dark out.