Clarity

“And how could we endure to live and let time pass if we were always crying for one day or one year to come back-if we did not know that every day in a life fills the whole life with expectation and memory and that these are that day?” 
― C.S. Lewis, Out of the Silent Planet

December 12, 2012.

About once a year I go back to the beginning of this blog and I read. and I cry. And a flood of emotions returns to me - all of you return to me. I miss your smells. All of you. Even the ones that don't think so. I miss the laughing and the learning together. I don't know how everything got so far away from that but I'm glad it existed. I'm glad I have those parts of my heart and that I can feel it again, even if it's fleeting. I so wish I could smush against you right now. I wish I knew then what I knew now. Just for a second; Deja Vu from the future. Love is painful and perfect.

We are all in this together.

I'm so proud of you. All of you. For all of the little things, the big things, the moving forward things. We are all together - taking steps.  Patience. Be proud of yourself. Be proud of everyone else. What else are we here for?